The Call (Original)

The song that was born out of the crying mess God made of me this morning - when He planted the seed of sorrow for this world in me... and the burden to speak out against the silence - of the work that MUST be done.

The Call

Today I heard a man
He spoke of people suffering
Of little girls that fell prey to evil deeds of men.
I heard in lengthy details
And how the words pierced through my soul
I wept in silent agony, while my heart cried out, oh Lord!

What are we wasting our time on?
God, You’re calling us now
To be Your voice in this world
Your hands and Your feet as well
How can we sit so silently?
When the time to work is right now
Lord have mercy on us all
Open our ears to Your Call

I went home still shaken
By the message I had heard
Wanting to help in any way
But not quite knowing how.
Then I had to do my laundry
And those bills –they have to be paid!
I’ve so much already on my plate
I forgot what I had heard

What are we doing every day?
Living our comfortable lives
What about the urgency?
The workers are so few.
How can we quickly just forget
The vision God placed on our hearts
We should see the world with Kingdom eyes
And love Your children as You do

BR:
Heal our eyes that we might see
Heal our ears that we might hear
Our hearts must understand
The Call to serve You...

What are we wasting our time on?
God, you’re calling us now
To be Your voice in this world
Your hands and your feet as well
How can we sit so silently?
When the time to work is right now
Lord have mercy on us all
Open our ears to Your Call

We are your hands
We are your feet
We are Your servants
Lord send us!

~S. Written 0811209.

It's beginning to feel a lot like...

... winter! YAY!

2 days ago, it started getting a LOT cooler here in Bangkok.
So cool, I haven't turned my A/C on in more than 24 hours!
In fact, I woke this morning feeling chilled, and couldn't simply reach for the A/C remote and turn the A/C off.... had to close the windows. Heh.


So here we are in November, and just an inch away from 2010.
How time does fly.

School is getting to the point where everyone is crazybusy.
Teachers and staff look a tad insane because all our wonderful activities are crushed into the small time-bracket left for 2009.

Things have really changed at my school. What positive changes they have been too.
Everyone is learning a whole lot, and our school is definitely progressing in an upwards fashion.



On a personal note, the last few weeks have been... overloaded.
To the point where I succumbed to a cold virus for the first time in years. Eargh.
Forgot how sucky it is to be sick. Hahhahaa...

Anyway, I'm rushing off to work in just a bit, but wanted to blog a few glimpses I've had this last week:

In reflecting about what is life, and -- if I had just 4 minutes left on this earth, what I would say...

LIFE

It's not about...
money
health
beauty
conveniences
possession
having people you love physically with you
relationships with family and friends
feeling like you FIT
being happy
or satisfied with life
and especially not SELF...

For all is meaningless... a chasing after the wind.


RATHER,
it's ALL about
getting to know WHO GOD IS

EVERYTHING experienced in this life
is for the sole purpose of learning about WHO GOD IS
and letting His Character teach and seep into
your OWN life...
your work
your relationships
your activities
your mental/emotional state...
such that it is merely an overflow
of WHO GOD IS.

In fact,
one lifetime is possibly not enough!
That is how immense GOD is!

And so - the meaning of life..,
is wrapped around the Heart of God.
For without Him,
ALL is meaningless.
But FOR GOD,
ALL has meaning.
Even death itself.

Extra Long Episode this Week - W51.TV, Episode 6!!

Getting back from mid-term break was especially hard - after a lazy week at the beach, and one crazy zombie-weekend, I dove straight into work with newfound fervour..., and now at the end of the week, am practically burnt out!

This has been one crrrrrrazy school week!

As testament to week gone by that was just jam-packed with activities and work, here is the product of HOURS upon HOURS of filming and editing:

Thrill the World '09 for Bangkok Refugee Center

After conducting my first ever dance rehearsals, this is the result:



It was FANTASTIC! We danced in front of a crowd that covered the entire plaza at CentralWorld BKK - I'm not sure how many people there were, but THOUSANDS for sure! YIKES!

Then I our little segment ended with me singing Heal the World:





Yep, I've been a busy busy bee! =)

Krabi Countdown:

4 days left!!!


FINALLY - after living in Thailand for 5 years, I'm FINALLY making it to the Southern beaches!
WOOHOO!!

Will be taking the overnight train to a nearby town, then bus to Krabi.
Can't wait!





Time is just zipping by at the moment - I anticipate Xmas slamming into my face in what will seem like but a few weeks.
This week I'm busy acting as stage manager for the Grade 4 & 5 Diwali (/Deepavali) celebrations. I've got Hindi music stuck in my head, and bangles and a bindi ready for tomorrow!

More this week:
- Leading my last Thrill the World dance rehearsal before I leave for Krabi. It's gonna be awesome!
- Checked out the King of the Jungle exhibition at Emporium Mall yesterday and today.
Here are some pics:



























Made a double take at the sight of this creature - the Kangaroo Rat!

HE is powerful above ALL.

My last post (Monday) was pretty despairing, I must admit... so lest you be misled into thinking that I've been spending my days miserable and confused.... I should give you an update.


I woke up Tuesday with prayers on my lips and the renewed strength of the Lord's guidance.

I realized that I had been under attack.
Satan up to his wiley old tricks again.
But no... this time I chose to remain in God's presence and not fear the devil.


My joy comes from the Lord.
So all it took was a simple surrender that God will fend off Satan's attacks.

And His blessed peace was on my heart once again.



I am not here on this earth to simply "feel good".

I am here for a purpose - and that is to show the Father's Love.
It's ok to be tired and dejected every so often.... being human and all.... but then we need to surrender even our tiredness and confusion to the Lord.... and let Him guide our thoughts and make our paths straight.

After all, this life on earth is so fleetingly brief.
Everything is meaningless like vapour... like wind.
Everything except God's Love - which goes on forever.
That is what we should and must focus on.

(No Need To) Rescue Me.... Won't You Hold My Hand?

A while ago, I wrote in my fb status that I don't need a Prince to come rescue me on a white horse (anymore).

While that still stands..., I realize now that there needs to be a sort of balance.


I'm having one of those off days - where nothing about the day or what's happening is really the problem. Rather, it's all emotional and cognitive.

Exploring God's Will for my life whilst discovering the need to serve Him has been a wonderfully exhilarating experience. So exhilarating, I felt invincible for quite a while - equipped with His loving power.

I rode the "high" wave for quite a while... and it's been a while since I've felt this.... BLEAH.


So I think that "high" has laid a good ground for the current BLEAH wave I'm starting/crashing out on.




See, I'm one of those females that DON'T fall over when the wind blows.
Neither do I need constant validation to secure my belief in who I am as an individual.
However, I am still a woman.
I do still need affection and care and love.

So, yes, of course I resonate with resounding clarity when friends gripe about the lack of good, mature men left in the market.
I believe that my growth as an individual is helps to prepare me to be a better half.
But at the same time... I don't depend on it anymore - being an other half to someone.

Are you confused after reading all that?
You should be.
Because I don't quite get what I'm writing. Altogether.


Let's just say that on an average day, I'm happy to be carefree and single.
And today's not one of those days.
But I'm not about to up and do something stupid that I'll regret later.

I've done that once before.

Been a while...

I've been busy.

B.U.S.Y.


Things that I've been working on lately:

• Organizing and instructing dance rehearsals for Thrill the World BKK. *Gasp!* I can dance!
  
• Filming, producing, editing W51.TV - our school's new "TV" show.
• Developing proactive, preventative methods using positive psychology to fortify the kids at school against socio-emotional problems.
• Making music for charity (Help Live concert)
• Leading worship in church, and (this coming weekend) gonna be sharing the message...
• Giving workshops, going to workshops/meetings (All to do with Education and Psychology)
  
• Running!
  

Well, there's more but I won't bore you too much.

In the midst of it all, I'm praying for calm.... this week is gonna get busier again cuz no more interns to help me. Sigh.


I'll say this though - there has been increasing synthesis between my work and personal/spiritual life. Which is good.

Prayer Requests: (If you can, please join me in prayer)

• All those affected by the earthquakes/tsunami.
  
• Kristen's mom is still in a coma. Please pray for her and her family.
• My job is my service to God - please pray that I receive wisdom in how to help the kids at this school learn more about love and kindness.

Some pics of yesterday's Rehearsal:

Episode 4