Time Alone

It used to scare me.
Being lonely.

Now, it is both blessing and curse.

Being here in Thailand is a different sort of loneliness.
It's compounded by alone-ness.
Don't get them mixed up.

I'm beginning to enjoy the Meal For One.
A while back, I could hardly do it - walk into a restaurant and say "Table for one." (Neng Kun in Thai)... and then sit quietly and contentedly by myself for the entire meal.

But now, I'm beginning to be a little more than ok with it.

In this big, lonely world...
... what a treasure it is to find people to share your life with.

But treasure it also is to learn to appreciate and revel in being alone with yourself.


Having an apartment all to myself.
Coming home to be an empty house.
Hearing the incessant tick of the clock in my little box of a room.

I'm friends with myself now.
It's not just ok... it's all good.


But I also have Him.
He never leaves me alone.
Even when I am at my loneliest, He never fails me.
Monday was a dark day for me... He reached out with strong hands and lifted me out of the storm. How grateful I am for this Father who provides everything I need and more.