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LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, presenting....

This is IT!

No words can describe how I feel about finally completing my first full-length all-originals album.

Instead, if you are in Singapore, please let my music tell all:

SIMPLY SHIMONA DEBUT ALBUM LAUNCH

8pm, Feb 23rd, 2012

@The Merry Men

86 Robertson Quay

CLICK HERE --> Facebook invite and full details.

Sing a song about faith....

I want to tell you about a song I recorded today.

I wrote this song a little more than a year ago.
It's called "A Promise is a Promise".

At the time that I wrote it, I wrote my excitement and fears about leaving Bangkok to move back home to Singapore.
The words spoke of a promise that was to be claimed - a strength that could be grasped in times of fear and doubt.

Last week, as I practised this song in preparation for today's studio recording, I realised how much more apt it was for my current circumstances.

Please don't think I am complaining.
I am not.
I am simply stating this:
It is insanely difficult struggling to make a living as a musician/singer in Singapore.
Why?
There are so many factors that I could site.
But I'd rather not get into that....
Just suffice to say that this is possibly the one trade you can be fantastically good at but still, hardly anyone will pay for your services/product.


ANYWAY....

Given these tough circumstances, and set it beside the fact that SINGAPORE IS AN EXPENSIVE PLACE TO LIVE IN...., and what do you get?
STRESS.


The point is - music is my full-time job.
I'm not in it for the money.
Never was.
I'm in it because I love music so much.
And somewhere along the way..., the industry, the lack of support, the brutal truth of reality - started to eat away at my faith in myself.
"If I'm really good at what I do, why aren't I succeeding?"

BUT.
Back to the song...

As I practised - sitting in my room, plucking at the guitar strings, legs crossed sitting on my bed - just like when I started out learning to play the guitar.. sitting on my bed at night, plucking and singing...,
I realised - the song isn't so much about a promise as it is about FAITH.

The focus isn't about the promise to be claimed at the end.
It's about how DIFFICULT faith can be during times of trouble.
How even when you don't FEEL like you're worth it..., that you're good enough, that you DESERVE the beautiful promise..., that you can STILL hold on to that sliver of hope and KEEP THE FAITH.

"Hold on.
Hold on.
Hold on to His promises...
they're true."

** "A Promise is a Promise" will be released online (only) as a Single before my album release. Stay tuned for more details as they come.

Outgrown...

I know - TWO blog posts in a week?

~~~

I should be sleeping.
But instead I'm thinking.
Not for any reason in particular.
The thoughts just sort of float and hover as I potter about my room.
And yet there they are - thoughts.

~~~

One thought in particular crystallized in my mind's eye:
We outgrow.
- clothes
- feelings
- tastes
- situations
- places
- people

See, I was browsing through a listing of TV series, and stumbled across "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".... and thought to myself -
'Gee, I used to LOVE this series!
Owned a couple of box set DVDs...
and hmmm... ended up selling them.....
and would I watch them again?
Actually, no.'

It's not just my TV-watching preferences that have changed.
I don't read the same books I used to when I was a teenager - I can hardly stomach those all-too cheesy romance novels these days. They're too full of fluff and fancy.

Growing up, I used to pick the "chang" (chopped spring onions) from my food.
Living in Thailand found me asking for extra spring onions!

When I was a kid, I'd order my cheeseburger without pickles.
Now I'd love it if there are extra!


In the (almost) year since I've been back in Singapore, I've come to realize that I've outgrown certain friendships.

BTW, I must make a note here - it's important you understand that my use of the word "outgrown" has no negative connotations - simply that things change.
And in this instance, I've realized that my preferences in TV, food, and books aren't the only ones that have changed over the years - my preferences for certain kind of friendships over others too, have changed.

~~~

On a side-note, I think I outgrew Bangkok.
And that is why I felt that it was time to move back to Singapore.
Not that one is better than the other.
Simply that for this period of time, this is what FITS.

The tides of life are ever-changing.
We must change with them.
We cannot fight change - we must see that there are different things and places and people that fit different periods of our lives....


OK. With that very "zen" thought..., I bid you all goodnight!

2011 UPDATE!

Hi everyone,

Sorry for the lapse in updates!
So here's a short 2011 update on what's going on with my music...

First of all, I'm starting work on my debut full-length album.
Everything's still in the beginning stages right now, so I can't offer many details... but watch this space.

Secondly, "Christmas Lights" CDs are no longer for sale.... until end of the year.
There are only a limited number of CDs left. So I will start selling them later on as a limited edition CD. (Because they are LIMITED!)
But if you really want, you can still buy it the mp3s from www.shimona.bandcamp.com.
Oh and by the way, if you bought "Christmas Lights" and wish the CD came with track notes and lyrics, stay tuned - I'll be adding a page to my website which will feature the album notes.... akan datang (soon) !

Lastly, I'm taking in more voice students! So if you're interested in taking private voice masterclasses, do drop me an email - info@shimonakee.com.
I'll be starting to teach Private Voice to a select few at United World College SEA, and Replugged Music (both of these school and I are still in the scheduling stages) as well. Please note that my style of voice lessons focuses on both stylistics as well as basic fundamental vocal techniques that are often based on my classical voice training - I tailor lessons to the individual.

OK boys and girls... CNY is coming up. So enjoy the festivities, treasure your loved ones, and eat till you're prosperous!!
恭喜发财!!
Love,
~Shimona.

PS: I'll leave you with some of my songs from my the 1st night of my Originals Only concert at the Esplanade Concourse: CLICK HERE TO WATCH.

"CHRISTMAS LIGHTS" on sale ONLINE now!!

I'm am VERY VERY pleased to announce that my debut EP, "Christmas Lights" is for sale online!! WOOHOO!!!!!

http://shimona.bandcamp.com/

Have a pre-listen, and please please please support this indie artist by actually BUYING it!
I've painstakingly written notes for EACH track with great care - so just click the track titles and you will be able to read about some of the "stuff" that happens behind the construction of a song.
I never knew THIS much work goes into producing your own album! Ack! :p

Physical CDs will be on sale NEXT WEEK :
I will be selling them at gigs once it's ready.
My gig venues (CMPB and HOOD) have also agreed to hold some stock - so you can drop by and pick one up there even on days I'm not singing!
For details on gig dates/timings, check: http://shimonakee.com/anticipate
OR - if you know you will see me, send an email to info@shimonakee.com and I will save an EP for you - you can pay me direct whenever we meet for coffee/movie/dinner/church/whatever.
NOTE: If you are buying direct, pricing is minimum S$5, more if you're feeling charitable. :)

MAIL-ORDER THE EP:
Send an email to info@shimonakee.com and state the following information:
1. Your Name,
2. Your mailing address,
3. No. of CDs,
4. Amount you want to pay: Minimum cost is USD5 per CD, but you can give more if you… like, since part of the proceeds go to charity, no not my own charity… THIS CHARITY: http://insearchofsanuk.com/

PLEASE NOTE: You will get an invoice via email (to be paid to PayPal), and once payment is made, the CD will be on its way (once it is released).
I will be hand-mailing EACH EP personally. By regular mail. (Yeah, go INDIE artist!!) Postage will be included in your PayPal invoice.
CDs will be mailed out somewhere around Dec 15th. And YES, of course, the EP will be autographed with lotsa love and appreciation.

For the Love of the Art

Almost 2 weeks ago, an article was published in the Straits Times, Life! section - front page - about how there are too many live music venues in Singapore, and not enough good quality musicians.

Before even reading the article, I wondered to myself - where are Singaporeans GOING to listen to music???
In my opinion, upon returning to Singapore after 6 years abroad, 2 of which were in Bangkok, the quality of music here has improved and is increasingly encouraging to the fledgling musician.

So I tried to put my immediate doubts aside and read the article as unbiasedly as possible.
Several valid points were brought to my attention.

Musicians: More venues are hiring musicians and offering live music to attract customers.
As a gigging musician looking for work, this is definitely not something to complain about - as in ANY job market, the availability of jobs helps create more demand. It may seem that the supply of good musicians is small..., but c'mon Singapore, give human beings time to learn and grow! We spend years and years studying in schools to receive paper creditations and appropriate skills for jobs... but more often than not, the gigging musician is in it for the love of music and performing. Not because they have a pHd in Gigging. So giving musicians time and support to improve is vital.
But also, musicians - hey! it's time to work harder and try to improve in more areas musically... don't grow complacent just because one audience likes 5 of your songs. haha... Take pride in your skill - try to offer more, don't let a bit of criticism or the occasional setback demoralize you too much. Instead, let it be a stepping stone to further achievement and success! :)


Audiences: Your energy and feedback helps musicians in their performances!
How many of you love to sing at KTV lounges? Fun?
Well, imagine that your friends ask you to get up there and sing - you pick your favourite most best-loved number - the one you've practised singing in the shower a million times, and know you can belt with full confidence. You muster up your confidence and get up to sing... and realize - the microphone is not on. Oh wait, yes it is - just that the volume is at +1. You ask them to turn the volume up - but the waitress says, sorry - the table next to you thinks you're too loud. So they turned you down.

OK, nevermind - you can sing louder.
So you do.
You can barely hear your voice coming out of the sound system...
And as you sing, you notice your friends are not listening - they're just talking to each other.
In fact, they're talking in increasingly loud tones because someone is blending a mojito in the bar, and they can't hear each other over the sound of the blender.
Their voices drown out your own hardly-miked up voice. Hmmmm...

The song ends, you give your best ending note with gusto and wait for applause..... except none comes. What? Were you singing out of tune? Was the microphone still too soft? Arghh.... you NEVER want to sing in front of people again!!!

Well, let's just say - this is often somewhat of a similar scenario to the gigging musician - there are so many factors that audiences are not aware of.

The times when musicians perform better are when: the audience is actually looking at them, feedback (ie. applause at the end of a song), song requests, smiles, etc. -- stage performers feed off the energy of people in the audience. Just go to ANY rock concert and you'll see that.
You can help the morale and even quality of the stage performer by being kind and respectful of what's going on on stage. :)


Venues: Hire with wisdom, compensate honorably, treat us respectfully.
One thing mentioned in said article was that song repertoires are often too repetitive or narrow in genre. To this, I can only say: You get what you pay for.
What motivates people to work harder at their jobs?
Compensation.

What happens if, at your job, your boss starts to demand more of you - maybe they send you for workshops or trainings, or say that if you hit a certain target, you will get a bonus or maybe even a promotion.
Question is: Do these incentives exist in the gigging circles?
I mean, don't full-time musicians deserve the same sort of incentives and motivation?
If a repertoire needs to be expanded, this means more research and learning time, rehearsal time, and effort! Will a musician want to learn 100 more songs for a venue if there is no motivation?

Don't get me wrong - many musicians DO keep learning new songs and improving their techniques, etc. But this is NOT always because we are getting paid more. We do it because we LOVE our jobs. We do it for the love of music and for professional integrity.... or even cuz we're bored of our own songs. Yeah, please stop requesting Hotel California, Love Me, and Britney Spears songs... PLEASE!!! :p


Support: Instead of saying "oh the music scene in Singapore is sad and lacks support", what can ANY ONE PERSON do to help?
Honestly, this is SO much easier to answer than you'd think.

• Appreciate what we've got. Stop comparing us to the bigwigs in the American entertainment industry - oh please, like I wouldn't be a Lady GaGa too if I had millions of dollars pumped into publicity, audio engineering, wardrobe, etc.
  
• Learn to actually listen. Yes, I know - you went to the restaurant for DINNER, not for a concert of some unknown Singaporean singer.... but hey, listen every now and then. Smile, and it could perk up some tired performer's entire gig!
• Support local music. This sounds kinda vague, but it's really not: Free concert? Try to make time out of your super-busy work schedule to go to at least one per year. Free downloads, facebook pages, check them out - c'mon, you know you peruse the websites of plenty an overseas artiste, why not our own?? Share them with your friends - YES, there is PLENTY of good local original music. And spanning many different genres too!
  Heard of a local artist who's launched an album? Give the artist a chance - buy the album - it's someone's livelihood, and most artistes here are independent and could use ALL the help they can get!
  
• Be kind & tolerant. Like I said earlier - everyone's gotta start somewhere. Many gigging musicians learn and grow a LOT musically over the years they gig. They often start out raw and scratchy, but a decade later, are all over the papers and radio. Next time you hear an out-of-tune note, just smile and give the person a chance - they're probably still in Gigging Kindergarten, so to speak. :)
• Requests originals!! We know, we know - we know you LOVE us to cover your favourite song by that popular American/UK band... but show us your love & support by asking us to play an original instead - many or rather MOST musicians I know are creative muses and have plenty of lovely original music, just waiting to be appreciated. Who knows, you might be the first to hear an original song by an artist whose concert ticket might one day cost you a good $200! One good example - a friend of mine once mentioned that she in New York years ago, and wanted to catch a free concert of some unknown singer... but missed it due to a change in schedule. Guess who the singer turned out to be? Alicia Keys. (Of course the free concert was back when Alicia Keys was just... yes, a PUB singer.) Heh.
  

So... forgive me for airing my humble opinions and quite possibly sounding a tad more than frustrated when an article on the front page of the national newspaper cites that musicians here are not of standard and (most) do not work hard. I can't understand where this is coming from! And worse, I feel that the general public will further misunderstand the nature of a musician's job! :'(

Many musicians I know, as well as myself, will of course keep making music, keep striving for improvement..., regardless of the hours, lack of applause, little improvement of pay, and much misunderstanding from the general public.

Why?
I'm not exactly sure.
The job is a LOT harder than many people realize - even those closest to us (not in the same field). All we can do is continue striving for our art, and encouraging each other.

Maybe music is a balm for the soul that is its own answer....


(Here are pics of the article.. sorry, quality not so good):

Musical Inventory...

There's a new hot venue in town - TAB, which showcases local original talent, as well as new international artistes.

I'm singing there tonight.
Yay!


Despite having enough original music to fill at least 3 albums, I've never actually performed more than 3 of my own songs at one single performance.

Why?

Let's just say - audiences at venues such as bars or restaurants aren't usually too keen on hearing unknown stuff.
Familiar is comforting, and their ears perk up whenever I play a song like "Kiss Me" or "Time After Time".

That and - it's often hard to hear lyrics at live venues - and if you aren't familiar with a song, and can't hear the lyrics - it's probably going to be hard for you to identify with the song.

Yes, a catchy tune is important.
But to me, as a songwriter, lyrics are often what "gets" people.
I mean, yeah, music can push past language boundaries... sometimes a song without words can make you cry, or a song in a foreign language will touch your heart.
But more often than not, our favourite songs are the ones that we resonate with lyrically.


So tonight, I will be singing mostly originals.
Songs that have stories behind them - songs about love, betrayal, loneliness, friendship, tragedy... and I hope that whoever is in the audience will be able to listen astutely to the lyrics.

Because I wrote my heart into each of these songs.

Music on My Mind...

Tonight I play at Hood Bar (55 Keong Saik Rd).

Gathering my repertoire together yesterday, I decided to up my game a little and do more than just my usual guitar-sing, one-woman show.

First off, tonight I will be accompanied on the cajon by Rahman - whom I only just met a few days ago. (Ahhh the magic of music!)

Secondly, I once said, whilst performing at The Iron Fairies in bkk, that I would one day do a ukulele set... and so I've mustered some songs together for tonight - on the uke.

Thirdly, I've had some songs that I only play when accompanying myself on the piano/keys... and so far, have not had the opportunity to do that at a gig -- either there is no piano/keyboard at the venue, or I didn't have the time to practise the songs on keys. Ha.
Well, tonight will mark a new beginning for playing the keys as well. :)

Lastly, I hardly ever play more than 2 originals at any one performance.
However, I have decided that I need to give my originals more exposure (and practice). So I'll be doing at least 5 tonight. :)


Let's see what happens. I'm excited....

Packing Do's and Don't

DO NOT:

• Pack on the very last day.
• Freak out.
• Get emotional about material possessions.
• Keep getting distracted by facebook.
• Chuck stuff randomly into a bag. Unpacking will be a bitch. I promise.
• Forget to eat amidst the packing frenzy.
  

DO:

• Think positive - it's really NOT as bad as you think. Really!
  
• Give yourself at LEAST 3 full packing days.
• Plan - Look at your space and divide it up into categories/sections. Chances are your room/house is already nicely categorized (ie. cosmetics, clothes, kitchenware, etc)
• Work on 1 or 2 sections at a time. Don't look at the WHOLE mess at once. Attack bit by bit.
• Put some happy/motivational music on. Dance, sing, smile, cry while you pack.
• Give yourself rewards and breaks in between. It's no small task!
• Be as unsentimental as you can - a lot of accumulated junk can be thrown or given away. Don't pack it up, ship it, and then end up not using it or throwing it away. Yeesh.
• Remember - you are packing stuff away. Not your life. Differentiate the two.

That being said..., I'm about 70% done and on my last packing day.
Wish me good luck!! :)

Tminus3days

Been a while since I wrote a proper blog post. Update-style I mean... (not poetry as I am often wont to do)

So what's been going on?
I'm standing at the junction of yet another Life-Crossroads.
In just about 3 days, I will fly that oh so familiar budget airline plane... back to the country of my birth. Again.

Been back for many short trips over the last few months. But this time I'm moving back to Singapore. More or less for good.

((off on tangent for a bit...))
For good.
Why do people ask that - "Are you moving back for good?"
I mean... seriously, how am I supposed to know these things??!?!! Who know what will happen in a few years. I mean, just 4 years ago, I was on a path that was supposed to lead me to moving to Finland "for good".
Things change.
Suddenly.
Nothing is "for good".
((ok, tangent done))

For nearly 3 months, I've been involved in a local (Bangkok) theater production of Shakespeare's "A Midsummer Night's Dream".
For those of you who don't know.., Bangkok's Arts scene is pretty much still untapped and very raw... and to stage a Shakespearean play takes a whole lotta guts (or crazy, or both)!
What's more, our production is staged intimately in the confines of a pub that serves as blacksmith factory by day and wine bar by night - The Iron Fairies.

The play opened last Wednesday to a sell-out crowd and an audience that was just a dream!
Today, I sit here in my room - luggage half-packed, contemplating the wild journey I embarked on ever since starting this production.
Tomorrow is our last night, and despite having caught the flu, I look forward to the last performance - anticipating relishing every moment.

Because on Thursday I move on to a new chapter of my life.
New beginnings, new challenges, pursuits of new passions, new priorities...

Excitement mingled with dread.
Push and pull.
Ahhh the tides of life they be.

Counting down....

Well, I might as well do it in good 'ol blogging fashion - the Countdown till I move back to Sg:



MySpace-Countdowns

As Rin would say: COMMENCE FREAK OUT!

Full Circle

Well, I've waited long enough to make this decision final and official - I'm moving back home to Singapore! :)

I'd say that there is a long list of reasons for me making this decision, but I'm going to just share the 2 most important ones with you:

1. Family. I've been away for long enough.
2. Music. This will be my 2nd "real" foray into music. But this time, I have fresh ideas, fresh perspectives, and (hopefully) my music and songwriting has developed & matured over the 6 years I was away from music as a profession.

To make a long story short...
The decision process:
I've always been very instinct-based/Spirit-led, and when I started to dream of Sg (and I'm not normally the type to get homesick) for no supposed reason, I started to wonder what was up.
So I kept my eyes and ears open for the "little signs" that God usually litters along the way - and sure enough, home was abeckonin'.

The time is right. It's now or never.

So come late June, I'll be back in Sg and raring to....
Though I'm surely going to miss friends here in Bangkok, and even the city itself (despite the political turmoil, this is still kinda my 2nd home).... it's going to be good to be with family and friends in Singapore again.

The Call (Original)

The song that was born out of the crying mess God made of me this morning - when He planted the seed of sorrow for this world in me... and the burden to speak out against the silence - of the work that MUST be done.

The Call

Today I heard a man
He spoke of people suffering
Of little girls that fell prey to evil deeds of men.
I heard in lengthy details
And how the words pierced through my soul
I wept in silent agony, while my heart cried out, oh Lord!

What are we wasting our time on?
God, You’re calling us now
To be Your voice in this world
Your hands and Your feet as well
How can we sit so silently?
When the time to work is right now
Lord have mercy on us all
Open our ears to Your Call

I went home still shaken
By the message I had heard
Wanting to help in any way
But not quite knowing how.
Then I had to do my laundry
And those bills –they have to be paid!
I’ve so much already on my plate
I forgot what I had heard

What are we doing every day?
Living our comfortable lives
What about the urgency?
The workers are so few.
How can we quickly just forget
The vision God placed on our hearts
We should see the world with Kingdom eyes
And love Your children as You do

BR:
Heal our eyes that we might see
Heal our ears that we might hear
Our hearts must understand
The Call to serve You...

What are we wasting our time on?
God, you’re calling us now
To be Your voice in this world
Your hands and your feet as well
How can we sit so silently?
When the time to work is right now
Lord have mercy on us all
Open our ears to Your Call

We are your hands
We are your feet
We are Your servants
Lord send us!

~S. Written 0811209.

Why We Must Thrive

In the face of tragedy and despair, we often ask ourselves:
How will I survive this?

But is merely surviving enough?

Death is part and parcel of life.
So is suffering, pain, heartache, separation, and disease.
But to simply lie down and admit defeat to the infirmities of life would be totally unfair to our Creator.


With each successive brush with the issue of mortality, I have come to notice that there is a pattern in my reaction:

Shock
Anger
Grief
Despair
Numbness
More grief
Surrender
and finally, a passionate gusto to grab life by the balls and LIVE IT UP.

And then, quite possibly, the cycle repeats at a lower intensity.

Each person reacts seemingly differently, and yet there are distinct similarities.
For those who must continue our journey can only do so by finding a reason.



Life needs a purpose.
You cannot just live it blindly.
But you don't need to sweat it either.
Because sometimes all you need to do to find that reason to live your life... is to take one breath at a time.



****


When I first heard the news of Edwin's demise a few days ago, I went into immediate shock and denial.
But when grief finally found me, the only way to drive it out was to cry out to God for peace.
And it came.
As sure as the next morning.


I fear for those who think they have to bear the grief alone.
For that is entirely untrue.
The biggest lie you can EVER tell yourself is that you are alone.
We are more alike than you can imagine.
You and me.
Our hearts break with the same intensity.
They just do not appear to be the same sometimes.
But in reaching out to one another, we can find solace.

That is why God created communities.
That is what the church is all about.
In this close-knit, albeit imperfect network of human relations, we find our purpose in life - to learn to love each other, to enrich others' lives.... to bear with each other.
To give and receive.

And in that act, somehow, we will not just survive, but thrive.

****


Rest in peace Edwin. Till we meet again...

Oh! Just look at that!

MySpace Countdown Clocks

Clarity

Interesting - I've observed this several times before, but I keep forgetting how much I love running for the clarity I receive.

Must be the additional oxygen my brain receives. Ha.

Received clarity about certain ongoing issues in my life.
Struggles I've had for years.



Also, was a tad inspired - I have the beginnings of a song. :)
Let's see what happens...



****

As I strolled the last stretch of sidewalk back home, I thought of Reuben.
He used to go for runs around our neighbourhood a lot.
And while I listened to some music, I looked up at the slowly darkening sky, and wondered - this was probably a sight Reuben had seen many times before on his way back home from a run.
Again, I wished ever so much to be a fantastic runner like him.
Just to do him proud.

My memories and my grief have been pretty private so far.
Not that that's bad.
It's merely a realization - some are more open with their grief.

I choose who I reveal mine to.

And yet...

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A few days ago, an acquantance made an observation about my music (/originals).
He remarked that he has gotten to know me more through my music than through actual interaction with me. LOL...
Well, it's funny... music seems to be my most honest means of communication.
In it, I feel comfortable baring my soul.
And not many pick up on it.
Yes, many people listen to the songs I sing and tell me I sing nice and write nice songs... but not many realize just how much of myself I am revealing through those very songs.

It's nice to have that rare listener who more than appreciates, but resonates. :)


****

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Romance Aside...

I just got back from one of THE most romantic weddings EVER.

During the video of the groom's proposal, I found myself feeling like that little girl again - wanting to believe in the existence Prince Charming.

Being able to marry your best friend, and to build a marriage on a common love for God.... that's pretty rare in this day and age if you ask me.


I'll be painfully honest.
A part of me just went cold and hard when those romantic moments strolled by.
Having gotten the official divorce documents... yes, I'm legally single again... I find myself a tad unsure of how to feel.

OK, more than a tad.



Part of me wants... really badly, to trust God - to have faith that He will deliver me... and that if I need to be with a Significant Other, He will guide us to be together... it's just a matter of time.

But the other part of me - the part that has been hurt and is so afraid to trust anymore... well, that part just doesn't want to put her heart out there anymore.

How can you hope to believe in happily ever after with someone else, when all you've learned is that you're happier alone??


But I don't want to be alone.
Not many people do!
I know I can deal with loneliness... but the woman in me needs a man.
And the person I know myself to be, well, is a downright romantic who's never been indulged!




So yeah.... while I'm very very happy for my two friends who've found true love,
I've quite emotionally perturbed currently.

Suddenly Back Home

So.... I'm back in Singapore.
Suddenly and weirdly.

Got to visit Grandma earlier today.
She didn't look too bad, but not fantastic either.

The good news is that she's starting to eat again, and also that she was really happy to see me.
I joked with her and said that she can't get sick everytime she wants me to come back to visit her in Singapore! LOL....
Bye bye Phuket for the 5th year in a row. Heh.

My grandma's in the hospital....

:(



Please pray for her.