Romance Aside...

I just got back from one of THE most romantic weddings EVER.

During the video of the groom's proposal, I found myself feeling like that little girl again - wanting to believe in the existence Prince Charming.

Being able to marry your best friend, and to build a marriage on a common love for God.... that's pretty rare in this day and age if you ask me.


I'll be painfully honest.
A part of me just went cold and hard when those romantic moments strolled by.
Having gotten the official divorce documents... yes, I'm legally single again... I find myself a tad unsure of how to feel.

OK, more than a tad.



Part of me wants... really badly, to trust God - to have faith that He will deliver me... and that if I need to be with a Significant Other, He will guide us to be together... it's just a matter of time.

But the other part of me - the part that has been hurt and is so afraid to trust anymore... well, that part just doesn't want to put her heart out there anymore.

How can you hope to believe in happily ever after with someone else, when all you've learned is that you're happier alone??


But I don't want to be alone.
Not many people do!
I know I can deal with loneliness... but the woman in me needs a man.
And the person I know myself to be, well, is a downright romantic who's never been indulged!




So yeah.... while I'm very very happy for my two friends who've found true love,
I've quite emotionally perturbed currently.