The words that cannot leave these lips...

People who know me may find this hard to believe..., but the true reason I write/blog is because so often the words form in my brain and twirl around in my mouth, but never leave my lips.

Why?
Perhaps it's some of the leftover shyness I had as a child.
Or maybe writing it feels a little more detached, hence safer.

There is also a kind of beauty in words.
And I'm not one of those people who can muster together strings of word that can be coherently verbalized out loud on a whim.
Most times, the words churn around in my mind for a while before they can settle in some kind of sense.
And then they lie plastered on the inside of my lips.
They just won't exit.
At times some other words do instead.


Above all, and I think this idea will probably resonate with many other people who write or use creative outlets, expressing oneself in some roundabout manner allows the option for the people around us to care.
Without the fear of immediate rejection.

It's like saying, "Hey, here are the words that show my heart on a string.
Reply if you understand and care for me."


I guess it's just really, really, REALLY hard for us to actually come out and say things like that.